Pacer Chick

Well at least the new meds are consistent. Cotton mouth today as well, not as bad as it was though. I have just been feeling very thirsty. And also, I am starting to get tired a lot earlier than I used to, which isn’t a bad thing. I don’t need to be staying up till all hours of the night like Dracula.

I was kind of hoping that a miracle would occur as soon as I started taking CYMBALTA!! Like, my excess weight would just disappear when I was sleeping and I would wake up feeling and looking great. Sadly I am not living in Never Never Land (not Michael Jackon’s place either) I am working on it though since there is no magic “fat go away in your sleep” pill.

I guess me complaining about being tired means that I should get to sleep. I work tomorrow, so I need all the strength I can muster up…wait, that makes it sound like I am a private investigator or something…Anyways…goodnite!

Wow, stick me in Woodstock and I would blend in quite well I believe right now.

I am supposed to be on a schedule with the CYMBALTA!! but I don’t have any Lexapro right now to take with it, so I tried it by itself. Word to the wise…don’t do that. I took the medicine at work…don’t do that! I got really bad cotton mouth, my head was spinning, I was hot and sweaty, but I was cold, I got goose bumps, my head just felt all confused. I came home from work on my lunch, and I have just been chilling out…which is really all I feel like doing. And I have been chugging Vitamin Water that my papaw dropped off to try and minimalize the cotton mouth. I am going to keep trying this medicine though, I want something that won’t make me the size of Moby Dick. So, if I am going to have to be sick for a few days…okay. I just don’t want to go backwards since I have come so far, ya know?

Be positive…be positive…gotta keep repeating that in my head, and believe me, it is very hard sometimes. I have never really thrown in the towel when it comes to my disorder though, I am just not that kind of person. I mean, I have gotten VERY fed up with it a few times, I am not gonna lie, but for the most part I don’t let it run my life or define who I am. I am not just the girl who faints or the young girl who has a pacemaker. I am the girl who loves to laugh till she cries, who loves to read, who loves old movies. Never let this disorder define who you are and take the joy out of your life. We have this for a reason. I think the reason I have this is because, I can use it to make a difference. For so long, I really was the only one I knew who had this and I felt very alone and almost like a guinea pig for the school systems and whatnot. But now, more people are coming out and saying they have it as well, and the schools and colleges are more aware of it now. I hoped I helped out with that somewhat, helped to raise awareness somehow.

So everyone…keep your head up, actually…keep your BUTT off the floor. No passing out! We don’t want that! Take care, enjoy the day, enjoy life, and SMILE!! Be positive.

 Until we meet again…