Pacer Chick

I had dinner the other night with my mom, my friend Stephanie and her mom. Stephanie and I both have dysautonomia, and we met through the DYNA foundation. Hearing her talk about what she does to make her symptoms easier made me feel like a spazz or something. She was talking about how she drinks tons of water if she knows she is gonna go out that night. Do I? Nope. Its not like I am abusing my body or anything, but I don’t want to have this way me down. I applaud her for caring for herself though, I wish I could, but I don’t know…I just think its easier if I can just go about life pretending this doesn’t even exist I guess.

I am trying to focus on my mental health now more than the heart stuff though. I want a healthy state of mind more than anything. I don’t want to always be worrying about school and where my life is going. I want to be in California…scratch that, NEED to  be there. I wish I could just fast forward and be living there. I am planning a trip there in my head, maybe even by myself so I can really enjoy it. I can go celebrity grave hunting finally on MY terms. Stay there as long as I want

Wow, off track here. Hey, I have to vent somewhere right? Don’t want to give myself a heart attack although I wonder if my pacemaker would just shock that attack back into place…My pacemaker and I are a powerful match. Don’t mess with us.

Fare thee well…

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