Pacer Chick

Apparently my sister thinks that by willing your heart problem away, your problem is solved. Huh…interesting. Hasn’t worked for me for 23 years, so doubt its going to work anytime soon.

I have been having problems ever since I went to the pacemaker checkup. My pacemaker has been going off and my heart has been racing like I am a long distance runner or something! So, tomorrow I am going on a little trip to Perrysburg and getting a tune up. Lovely thing to do to start off the day! Oh well, I need it taken care of because its driving me nuts.

I am enjoying school more. I have been very talkative in my classes (shocking, huh?) My first three classes are literature so we are always analyzing and talking about what we read, and that is fun. I have met some nice and interesting people as well. September has just been a month of getting used to school and work again. October on the other hand I am looking forward to VERY much!! On October 3rd, my new boyfriend Michael Cera’s movie is opening so my best friend and I are going to see it. On the 4th, going to see a Buster Keaton movie in Redford. On the 5th, going to see a Harold Lloyd movie in Ann Arbor. On the 15th, going to see Cobra Starship in Detroit, and on the 25th, seeing Micky Dolenz at the Community College. If I thought I was worn out now…just wait! But I am super excited, so who cares?!

I should be paying attention to class right now, but its boring and its hot in here and I am hungry, so I don’t really care…

Okay, I guess I should be a good student. Farewell!

Back to school for me, and man…its slowly killing me! I usually get something wrong with me when school starts. Its hard to get back into the schedule of work, school, work, school. But clearly I am surviving it because I am writing this blog.

I am pretty sure my pacemaker wasn’t messed with at my last doctor appointment, but it seems like it is super sensitive. At work it was just going BOOM BOOM for some reason. (It doesn’t really make that sound, thats just what it feels like in my chest, fun huh?) And then last night when I was sleeping, it woke me up because my heart was racing. So, I don’t know what is going on there. I hope its not like how it was before when my heart kept racing, because I had to get an ablation…and that is NOT happening again. Maybe he did mess with it because he knows he gets on my nerves. Conspiracy maybe?

I was talking to someone I work with the other day, just explaining to her a bit of my heart problem and she said something to me that I hear a lot. “You seem to have a positive attitude considering all you have been through.” I remember growing up, I wanted to be THAT kind of person. The person that stays positive and just doesn’t become totally consumed by being sick and I thought I never would be that way. And its kinda funny to think that I am that way, and I don’t even really try for it. I mean, I am used to this because I have had it all my life, so I don’t really know how else to behave. Its nice to know I am not defined by NCS, POTS, or a pacemaker…at least, I don’t think so. When I think about what makes me ME, I know I have to include the pacemaker and everything because it does make me special….but I love old movies, I love to read, I love to have fun and laugh and that should define me more than just being the girl who passes out.

I feel uplifted now. Off to school…hope your school years are going well!